Monday, September 30, 2013

Viviana & her "yes"

Viviana just started saying her "s" sound and it's a "sh" sound. Had to record her saying YES - or "YESSSHHH" as she says it.

Monday, September 23, 2013

Life on the run.....

This is pretty much life everyday.... the kids running around the house, the car, the store (sigh)Viviana is in the stage where she wants to run from us as fast as she can.  And Quinn still dresses up pretty much all day everyday and here he is in his police costume catching the "bad guy"....
Fast as fast can be, you'll never catch me!

 On my birthday I think I got the most exciting delivery of my life, from my sweet sis, Julie! The biggest Tiffany box I've ever seen! (Since my sister has worked at Tiffany's she's sent me the most exciting gifts thru the years).

 I feel like such a grown up with my "big girl purse"!!
 I guess I'm getting OLD when the best thing about a birthday is all the loving cards & encouraging words you get from people! :)
I am so blessed to be surrounded by such generous, loving friends & family & coworkers,  but the best gift of all is to have people in your life that you love so much & they love you back equally as much.  Those people are rare & when you find them, hold them as tight as possible & tell them you love them as much as possible!
We tried the new Osaka Japanese Steakhouse on Ashley Phosphate, it was really good!

The sweetest peeps ever!! My dear Mom & Dad.

 I knew the kids would love the "performance" of the Hibachi chef even more now that they're older. They kept asking for "more fire" over & over! That poor guy!
 It seems a little unfair that at 35 I still have to deal with a shiny forehead & zits. Hormones, ughhh!! Judah sure looks cute though!
  I love my family!
 We had our first event at the City's new Amphitheater/Park & it was the  ribbon cutting & movie in the park and it was a HUGE success! I'm soooo happy!
The best thing about functions at work is we all watch each other's kids. I love my coworkers & their families!
We went walking the long trail on Daniel Island this weekend and we stumbled across the BEST PARK EVER!! It's behind the soccer fields near the Family Circle Cup stadium.... had a zip line & everything!

Baby girl was dozing off on the swing & on my back carrier, but as soon as we got home, she was wide awake. Go figure!

I don't usually advertise stuff I sell on CL here on my blog, but these are TOO cute not to offer to my friends!  Two pairs of size 5T Tiny Toms.  Blue corduroy look almost brand new & the brown pair are just slightly worn.  They are $15 (blue) $12 (brown) or $25 for the 2 pairs.

Just text/call me (or leave a comment) if you're interested!

Monday, September 16, 2013

Tick Tock and Ya Don't Stop!

Tomorrow I turn 35 and I've been doing a bit of reflecting on time. Like, how the heck am I turning 35? I thought I was just 24 yesterday?  How is my oldest child telling me Beethoven's life story already? Isn't he just a baby? How is it my actual "baby", Viviana is able to count to ten and say little sentences & sing songs, wasn't she born just a few month ago?
It's scary how fast life is flying.
But life is so good. Life is beautiful. I treasure the little things and always have.  Especially after last week I hold the kids closer & snuggle longer. 
I am so, SO grateful & happy for this life God has blessed me with. There is no greater gift than being content & happy & at peace with your life (even the parts that aren't what you hoped, but you are ok with). 
The only thing I regret at 35 is the "butt crack" wrinkle that has formed on my forehead from having concentration face at work (which unfortunately is just a scowl- I can't help it!) and -WTH, you'd better stop that-face with the kids.  I could have moisturized better. Or been more patient. ;)
Maybe for my 40th birthday- botox my forehead butt crack.
Anyways, this weekend we celebrated my birthday as a family and it was my perfect day filled doing the BEST things as a mama and none of the obnoxious stuff (God bless my amazing hubby, who did all the obnoxious stuff for the whole day, including clean the house/cook/change poop diapers, etc).  I got to sleep in, read books on the floor, snuggle with kids, take lots of pictures, play dress up, have dance parties, have control of the remote & radio station, walk around the mall. A day really does not get any better than that!
 Just stare into this sweet little face.....
And tell my little knight in shining armor how special he is to me.
 The littles like littles.  Little toys that is. Judah just sat and played with a lego helmet on his finger for 1/2 hour!
 And Quinn's favorite toys he played with for a week straight and promptly left at the mall play area later this day. He's so sad.
 And these little guys ride in the miniature millennium falcon.....
(by the way, these are the kids favorite pictures to look at, which is why I post them on my blog)

 My happy, snuggly, hilarious girl.

We need one of these digital pads at the house!  

 And Sunday was beautiful & fun. Playing, pool, church, going to Mimi & Papas house- perfect! Even if G was at church all day playing drums!

 Let me just tell you, NOTHING (outside of all of my favorite human beings) makes me happier than a CLEAN kitchen.  You see the kitchen island? That's the only place in my house that perpetually gathers junk. Important junk, bills, instructions, receipts, "to do" and when it's clean that means 1 of 2 things is happening, company is coming over and it's hidden in the desk armoire OR everything is DONE! And Sunday, everything was DONE. I want to remember this forever! :)
 And if having a clean kitchen  and empty "to do" list be my favorite thing in the world, wanting a quiche for my birthday dinner probably makes me about 95 years old! Lol.

Look! Because of the picture being overexposed you can't see the forehead butt crack! :)  To my sweet, dear, hubby.  Thank you for such an special day!!

And for the overexposed stupid photos, there are some that just turn out this. Ain't that just like life, you can look at all your pictures and just see the over exposed ones or the grainy ones, or the out of focus ones and think - everything sucks, or you can see those few gems, those few ones where the lighting was just perfect and say- this is pretty freaking amazing! And I have to say- life is pretty freaking amazing, thank you God!

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

The day we needed a miracle

Last Thursday was the hardest day we've ever had. 
I had been out of the office for a meeting and forgot my phone. When I returned I saw I had 9 missed calls and could see a partial text from Guillermo that read "in ambulance w Vivi heading to MUSC".  I call Gmo and he tells me "she was unresponsive earlier, but she's breathing now, I'm in the ambulance, meet me at MUSC" and we get off the phone & I start to lose my mind. 
Viviana had been having labored breathing all morning, which is fairly normal for her when she gets a head cold because of her (suspected) asthma. We just keep an eye on her and give her breathing treatments if it seems like she's wheezing too much. The nanny said that this was different from her wheezing and her breathing got worse and worse and then she would stop breathing for several seconds.  Then she totally stopped breathing all together.
According to the nanny her lips turned blue and black, her eyes glazed over & turned white and she could not be roused. The nanny started giving her CPR.  The nanny ran her to the neighbors to help and the neighbor also gave her CPR. The emergency personnel arrived and she finally started to breathe again (first miracle, since this meant they did not have to intubate her, just give her forced oxygen). Guillermo made it home just as the ambulance was taking off and he was able to ride with her (second miracle).
I'm driving like a bat out of you know where to get downtown and I know Gmo can't talk cause he's holding her breathing aparatus on in the ambulance so I text him "where do I go" and he responds where I park, I text him "where do I go after that" and he tells me Peds ER. I text him "is she ok?" and he doesn't respond, I call him, he doesn't pick up.  I drove from Rutledge Ave to the hospital thinking that my child had just passed away.
All I know is I have never been in a darker place in all of my life than those minutes it took me to drive to the hospital thinking that Guillermo wasn't answering his phone because he wanted to tell me in person she was gone.
Of course what happened was that right after his last response back he lost cell signal in the hospital. The moment I stepped into that hospital room and saw her little self covered in cords & machines but realized she was alive & breathing, I totally lost it. Praise God that He had His hand over & and was protecting her. Praise God for a nanny & a neighbor who knew CPR, and a nanny that didn't feel comfortable to just try to put Viviana to nap when she was lethargic all morning and instead held her in her arms. Thank God that in the end, it turns out that Vivi has pneumonia and a head/chest cold and nothing more that the ER staff nor our pediatrician could see.  The pediatrician thinks it's just a freak medical mystery that we'll never understand.  We went over all the possibilities and it just doesn't seem like anything "fits" as to why she stopped breathing.
Or course we've been a nervous wreck to let her out of our site & slept in her room with her for several days, but we just have to have faith that God took care of her on Thursday & protected her and he continues to do this every single day.
Thank you Jesus.

My heart breaks for the families that don't get to leave MUSC Peds the same day they come in. My heart breaks for the families who do not have a positive outcome when they enter & leave this hospital. For the families that have to deal with chronically sick kids, I am just sick for you.  The physical toll your body feel from that kind of stress is just unbelievable. Here it is 5 days later and I am still physically recovering. I felt like I had been hit by a bus from the stress of it all.
By the next day we were playing games together. I have never been so thankful just to hold my baby and watch her smile.
And to watch her feed her babies....

 And to take her on a walk, or to church (she had been on antibiotics for 3 days at this point).


I am so, so thankful for these kids. They are my everything.

Sunday mornings have never been more delicious, even when Daddy dresses your little princess in a Steelers jersey... ;)

Since humidity helps Vivi, I thought being outside in the ridiculous heat would help her, so we went to Hanahan's new amphitheater.  This is our City's pride & joy and has literally been talked about, dreamt about for 15 years for our Citizens and Council. And here it is, finished!

I had to take a picture of this grass hopper. Literally the biggest one I've ever seen, this monster was at least 5 inches long!

 Maybe it was because I bathed Vivi & took her jersey off is why Steelers lost? Oh well, the boys had fun watching the game (well maybe not the BIG guy).....

 With your kids, your most precious gift, you can just be overwhelmed with fear of the "what ifs".   
My Mom said it best in a recent email to me " The only thing that helps me get through these situations like what Viviana went through is to know that the Lord is in control and He has the answer to our every pain, every fear and every emotion."
And to that I say True Dat.  I don't know what I would do without my faith that God, truly is in control.  Good, bad, and ugly- He is in charge & there is a reason for everything.